Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Grandparents.

I had a dream the other day.
About my nan... (´・-・。)It was weird.

Me & my sis, ''step-sis'' [or you call it cousin here] & her family was living with her I think. My nan was old, we all knew she wasn't too well. One day, she got really sick; we told her to lay in her bed to rest & we'll take care of her. But that one day was long, I was suppose to have school that day but I didn't go because of my nan. I called in for absence. 
Then all of the sudden, I was outside my nan's room; I was watching her suffer from sickness in her bed. My uncle was beside her, I was sitting outside her room crying, looking at her that I couldn't do anyting to help & not brave enough to stay by her side. 
Next minute, I woke up... 

It was weird... I've had a similar dream before about my grandma & my granddad. I don't know what it suppose to mean, like they both passed away last year. Maybe because I really missed them and regret that I couldn't be by their side when they were sick; and the fact that I didn't  say goodbye to them before they left. (>へ<)

According to dreammoods. It means: 
To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend in your dream indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, your dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.  

I do, I really do miss them. )): 
It's actually sad that all my grandparents are gone... & I hardly have my family here. Just my mum, sis & my cousin. Hearing ppl saying they're visiting their grandparents, or relatives makes me sad. 
・゜・(つД`)・゜・

Old.

So...
It's my b'day soon, but I haven't really planned anything yet. It's because I didn't even realise my b'day was coming up until last week. I've been busy sorting out moving back to my mum's and work, just so much stressed. 
It's 27th Sept today (┬┬_┬┬), too late to ask anyone to come & plus I doubt ppl will be free anyway :/ just gonna spend my 21st with Sen this year again loool. Ahwell, no big deal I guess. I can always celebrate my next b'day with my friends right? (^^ ')
It's my fault, I thought I didn't want to celebrate it with everyone. I was scared that noone would come since uni has already started & plus noone will have any money to go out. *sighh* Whatever. 

Thursday, 22 September 2011

Sis.



I've always thought being the only child is much better than having siblings... well pocket money wise loool. ( ̄ー ̄) No but really, i thought being the only child would get treated differently...
I guess I was wrong, when I was young I really find my lil sister really annoying&just honestly dislike her whatever she does. Though after everything we've been through, done together she actually means alot to me now. We have so much memories together. ♪ヽ(*´∀`)ノ  After she moved out with Mike [my stepdad], I hardly see her which actually make me miss her... (´∩`。)
Whenever I'm upset, she was always there to make me smile&to erase my sadness.

 Of course we still have arguments and stuff, but after 2secs we're back to normal again. Typical huh~ I'm glad I have her as my sis, I'd be lonely without her. 

(●´∪`)人(´∪`○)

Wednesday, 21 September 2011

In Debt.


I never understood why my mum always give me warnings about my spending; never understood why she was always stressed about money; never understood why she always moan at me going out. Now I understand everything, but its too late to regret it. (/□\*) 
Ever since I moved out to my cousin's place, I've been struggling with my spending. I was glad when my cousin didn't make me pay him rent or any bills at the time, because I was still in progress of getting a job. After few weeks, I found a job at wasabi's. I thought I was doing alright until my cousin [Jack] & his gf [Angel] talked to me about how much the rent & bills would be each month. They told me many times to find another job with higher wages and close to where I live at the time - but I get really tired after work just wanted to go home and have a rest so I never went look for a job. 
3weeks ago, Jack told me that he'll give me 2more weeks without paying rent but I still gotta pay bills. But because I've been going out alot, my balance was low... I told him I'll pay after I get paid next week. 
On the 9th Sept, I told him I was going to my sis, won't come back till sunday. Then we had an argument because I told him I don't have enough money to pay rent, but yet I'm going out so he got pissed. I told him I have to attend for the event, it was my close friend's bday I can't miss it&he wouldn't allow me to go, unless I pay him rent straight away. He said if I can't pay him rent by the coming weds, he'll kick me out. I didn't have a choice but to move back to my mum's, even though I still gotta pay my mum rent as well. 
In the past few days, Jack has been calling, texting, emailing me about making payments for rent/bills for Aug. I haven't said anything because I'm struggling myself, I still owe ppl money, bank overdraft, rent for my mum plus travelling to work. I just said I'll pay him back when I get paid... But I'm thinking if I have enough to pay him back after paying my mum, then travel costs..etc.. I dno... Too much. I don't even know what the hell I'm gonna do 。゜(゜´Д`゜)゜。 

Monday, 19 September 2011

Mochaa


This is Mochaa (>w< ') my little kitteehh! 
Though I wish I could bring her home with me, but my mum won't allow me to have a pet :/ especially cats, she dislike them... D: 
So she's staying @ my sis' with her bro Toby, Joker&Mummy~~
She's ssshhhooooo ceeewwwwttttteee!! 


Introducing Mochaa~ <3


我們都傻~~

After watching ''Love you'' (a Taiwanese drama by Rainie :3 ), fell in love with her song~~ 
Called - 我們都傻. [The lyric )':] 

電視劇【醉後決定愛上 你】插曲
作詞:陳威全/吳易緯吳易緯(生命樹樂團)
作曲:陳威全
編曲:周恆毅
製作人:薛忠銘

計算著為你流下了多少 眼淚
就代表又對我的心 撒了 多少謊
但每次我都選擇 選擇相信
相信你是愛我的

*倔強的以為我真的能改變你
看 你裝無辜的眼神 我很窒息
難道你沒有看見 看見我對你的好
還是你忘了 那些數不清的愛情軌跡

你說我傻 傻在愛上只懂愛自 己的人
我說你傻 傻在愛他你的眼睛騙不了人
我們都傻 傻在為一段沒有未來的愛情付出
還在期待會有奇蹟出現

你說 我傻 傻在愛上沒有感情的分身
我說你傻 傻在愛他就固執的奮不顧身
我們都傻 傻在寧願被犧牲也不願放棄天真
還在期待會有奇蹟出現

﹡REPEAT

誰 沒有為愛做過傻事 只是問心無愧 諷刺也無所謂
我說我傻 傻在愛上沒有感情的分身
你說你傻 傻在愛他就固執的奮不顧身
我們都傻  傻在寧願被犧牲也不願放棄天真

還在期待會有奇蹟出現
還在期待會有奇蹟出現
 

 

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