In Debt.

I never understood why my mum always give me warnings about my spending; never understood why she was always stressed about money; never understood why she always moan at me going out. Now I understand everything, but its too late to regret it. (/□＼*) 

Ever since I moved out to my cousin's place, I've been struggling with my spending. I was glad when my cousin didn't make me pay him rent or any bills at the time, because I was still in progress of getting a job. After few weeks, I found a job at wasabi's. I thought I was doing alright until my cousin [Jack] & his gf [Angel] talked to me about how much the rent & bills would be each month. They told me many times to find another job with higher wages and close to where I live at the time - but I get really tired after work just wanted to go home and have a rest so I never went look for a job. 

3weeks ago, Jack told me that he'll give me 2more weeks without paying rent but I still gotta pay bills. But because I've been going out alot, my balance was low... I told him I'll pay after I get paid next week. 

On the 9th Sept, I told him I was going to my sis, won't come back till sunday. Then we had an argument because I told him I don't have enough money to pay rent, but yet I'm going out so he got pissed. I told him I have to attend for the event, it was my close friend's bday I can't miss it&he wouldn't allow me to go, unless I pay him rent straight away. He said if I can't pay him rent by the coming weds, he'll kick me out. I didn't have a choice but to move back to my mum's, even though I still gotta pay my mum rent as well. 

In the past few days, Jack has been calling, texting, emailing me about making payments for rent/bills for Aug. I haven't said anything because I'm struggling myself, I still owe ppl money, bank overdraft, rent for my mum plus travelling to work. I just said I'll pay him back when I get paid... But I'm thinking if I have enough to pay him back after paying my mum, then travel costs..etc.. I dno... Too much. I don't even know what the hell I'm gonna do 。゜(゜´Д｀゜)゜。